I wonder where you are now
if you're in the city
if you're not.
I wonder who else's hearts you've broken
and if there is ever an amount of time
that you look up at the night sky
and remember me.
The moon lights up the sky
like a beacon
like a sign
and the whole time I thought you were my moon
you were the darkness
shrouding it in night.
You were everything I ever wanted
when I didn't know what was good for me.
Please don't say you love me
because I will say it back
and the only difference between us is that
I will mean it
and you will not.
You went along quite fine without me
but I can feel the question in your eyes.
I wonder if I said the word
the one tickling the back of my throat
the one sitting on the edge of my tongue
like a promise
like a threat
and if I did say it
what difference it would have made.
I know I care the most
when I leave without a word
without a comment
without a hug or a kiss on the cheek.
I will slip out like a cat in the night
silent and careful
never wanting anyone to see
just how much
they mean to me.
All I wanted was for you to appreciate me
but I looked into your eyes
and saw that you decided to hate me.
Sometimes, ya just gotta let the emotions out.