You know it’s different
when you don’t cry,
but instead feel as though there is
a giant stone
pressing down hard against your chest
forcing the air from your lungs
bit by bit
while at the same time,
a fire burns in the pit of your stomach
making it impossible to eat
to fully live.
It’s different this time.
Because while I can go about my day
without breaking down,
I am constantly living with these painful reminders
that I no longer have you.
Sometimes, ya just gotta let the emotions out.